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Sunday, December 28, 2008

10.20 in the evening. I'm sitting in my hall room with an unopened file of microB having just moved back in. As far as I know none of my acquaintances are in hall, save maybe for the handballers.

I'm feeling very sian. Something like depressed but not so serious.

Cos the youths in the church which I finally connected to at Church camp are at youth camp (ironically, at Changi Beach Club, the site of the finale of Medicamp), while I have to study.

Cos tomorrow there's a full day of handball and a friendly the day after so I cannot go back to Changi at all.

Cos though I feel my handball's improved, I still lack the height needed to cover the goal effectively and this is still being gleefully exploited and I dunno how to compensate for it.

Cos I know that from now on, the rest of my life is gonna follow a wonky time table which is gonna kick my social life out of the window.

Cos when I start studying Streptococcus I can barely remember what I read for Staphylococcus

Urgh.

Just some very spoilt thoughts from someone who's struck a sudden bout of enviousness of the rest of the world.

~JcZw~ at 10:22 pm

Saturday, December 27, 2008

As from today, I've played my most injurious soccer match since Primary 4. Just when I was getting used to pace of intra-fac games, I got a message calling me for a game with the medicine soccer team against some external team. Dunno how many tiers of goalkeepers from Mayank down they had to dig before they got to me heh.

So played for the first time on new artificial turf at VS (the last time I saw it, it was a potholed piece of sand). The first dive already promised the astro burns to follow. I must say though, that not being covered with new layers of mud with each progressive dive was a treat.

The game didn't go well, admittedly. My heart was in my room in hall with my microbiology stuff, and made quite a few mistakes. None of them led to goals, thank goodness, but I must say that I gave the defenders many heart attacks. In retrospect actually things went quite well aside from a free kick with nearly took down the post of the goal. I got a touch but only succeeded in straining my finger which was wrapped in Leukoplast as always.

On the outfield side... well, we were losing in ball in almost every 50-50 situation. So the ball would start quite far up, but would be tackled by an opponent, brought closer, forcing a tackle from our own side, whereupon the ball would spin clear, and almost invariably fall to the feet of an opposing player. Nothing like playing behind ZhengXian, Kevin, Ian, Wenjie and Samuel in the M2s team, who give me a lot more confidence. Oh the outfielders weren't bad, but just not that coordinated.

Caught a long ball into the penalty area, dived at the feet of another player who had the ball, and ran out to kick a loose ball away.

Then an attacker cut in from the wing, outmuscled the defender, and fired into the goal from hmmm 11 meters out. My dive was just a little too slow. An opponent running into the penalty area got brought down by another Medic. The penalty went low to my right. I was reacting and not predicting so again just a little too slow. 0-2

In the second half, a long ball fell to the attacker just inside the penalty area. He took two steps and shot. I dived left, parried the shot, but it still trickled into a corner of the goal.

The 4th goal was the best. A free kick was met by a attacker on the right who headed the ball back across the penalty area to another opponent who took one touch to control the ball. I ran to the left and dived to smother the shot, but hey, it wasn't there already. He'd passed it AGAIN across the goal, or it'd taken a deflection, but it was going into the right corner. When the game evolves such that the opponents can start doing 2-on-1s with you, life's not worth living.

Oh we were scoring too of course, but not quite as many heh.

Then came the clanger 10 min from time. Again, a skirmish at the edge of the penalty box. Again, the Medic was dispossessed. The large white striker turned and unleashed a snap shot on the turn, low and left. Down I went, hands first. Down came the ball, hit the ground, and oh the wicked bounciness of the artificial surface! It rose above my hands and hit me smack in the left eye. Down I went. Down I stayed. Bright lights flashed. Little birds sang. The miniature solar systems orbited in my head.

When I opened my eyes the first word in my mind, incongruously, was "scotomata". This evaporated when I finally found my specs which had been bent into a funny shape (at Parkway later, I found out that the mechanism in the joints had been twisted too so the damage was terminal).

The referee suggested I play without specs. I told him my degree was 900. He couldn't stop chuckling after that. So I played for the last 10 min with funny specs.

When your eyesight is 900 degrees and you don't have good specs, everything's funny. 5 minutes can see you developing a headache.

When your eyesight is 900 degrees and you don't have good specs, your depth perception goes. If I didn't know that the field was completely flat, I would have been wondering whether each line between the light and dark patches of the pitch was flat or ascending or descending. The next drop kick I did was horrendous. Misjudged the height of the ball completely. Possibly the worst mistake of the day.

Well so that ended the game. We didn't win. The margin wasn't big, but it was enough. Later on I discovered that my left orbit had taken the hit too and so the sides were slowly swelling up. Maybe I'll get a black eye like in the cartoons.

What a day indeed.

And on an end note, I just discovered that playing on artificial turf predisposes people to a higher risk fo MRSA infection

~JcZw~ at 6:15 pm

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Carolling at Quality Hotel with the church today. I was the only one from my rather expansive family to take part. Even more ironic was that I'm the one with the closest exam =X Infernal bacteria. And their antibiotics.

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Much smaller group than last year, but still quite high nevertheless. A lot of people came to watch and to take pictures. And we sang our lungs out heh (No splitting into sections dealing with your own particular range here). On the whole, a good show, and more importantly a good testimony to what we believe in =)

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Group pic at the end of the thing.

But the new thing this year was going to the blocks opposite to sing. They were of the older variety, small flats occupied with a variety of people, but mainly the elderly. I'll long remember singing songs like "you yi jian li wu", talking to them, reaching through the grills of the house to shake hands with them. We sang for near an hour straight until our voices all became quite strained. The image of singers nodules floated unwanted into my head.

God bless these people and keep them healthy, even in their immunocompromised days.

Had a more sobering experience on the MRT ride home. Was on the train from City Hall back to Kembangan when a man shuffled into the carriage looking for a seat. I remember him very clearly - brown sandals, olive green Converse satchel, black cap and clutching a box of Ferraro Roche tightly to him. No doubt a Christmas present to someone he cared for. He found a seat and sat down, not a big deal since the train was pretty empty (Because everyone was at parties, according to Dezhi).

A very ordinary scene at this time of the year.

Except his face and arms were criss-crossed with angry nodules and swellings, across his lips and his ears, twisting his fingers. The people who were near him imperceptibly shrank away. The old man next to him looked him up and down. I would be lying if I didn't admit that the sight made me feel uncomfortable myself. I could only think of mycobacteria or hypertrophic scars as a cause. But there you have it. We study about all these terrible things in the textbooks but nothing quite prepares you for the real thing, as we used to discuss back in SJ.

Just an ordinary guy, with his own programme, his own ideas, and definitely, from what he carried, with his own friends and loved ones much like any of us. But a guy whom some might say got a raw deal with life.

It was a harsh reminder of my reasons for wanting to do medicine, and what the job entails. Ultimately, it's for these people whom the various bugs and pathology indiscrimnately attack that we mug.

~JcZw~ at 1:03 am

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

I finally understand why in Sec 4 God gave me a nice, but also idiosyncratic, law-abiding teacher-in-charge for my CCA =) 4 years down the line things have worked out for good.

Thank God! Christmas feels happier suddenly. Though microB is still in dire straits.

Now we have been through the harvest
Winter has truly begun
Now we have walked in the chill of the night
We are waiting for, waiting for, for the saviour's day

Many have come from the valleys
Many have come from the hills
Many have started there journey home
To be with someone, with someone, on the saviour's day

Open your eyes on saviour's day
Don't look back or turn away
Life can be yours if you only stay
He is calling you, calling you, on the saviour's day

Joining the old and the young ones
Joining the black and the white
Meeting the need of the hungry is he
Will we ever remeber him on the saviour's day

Open your eyes on saviour's day
Don't look back or turn away
Life can be yours if you only stay
He is calling you, calling you, on the saviour's day

Here's to the God of the present (raise your glasses)
Here's to the God of the past (praise to the king)
Here's to the hope in the future he brings
We will sing to him, sing to him, on the saviour's day

~JcZw~ at 2:48 pm

Monday, December 22, 2008

Isn't life interesting. Just when I thought everything was going smoothly, something jumps out and gives me a hearty smack on the face. Murphy's law 1 Jonathan 0

No matter how hard we try, red tape gets in the way. I don't know why such a simple procedure requires so many levels of authorization. The last time I saw something like that, I was reading "The Hot Zone" by Richard Preston. And I'm not even playing with filoviruses. Too much red tape, not enough time. How to finish microB?

Still, there's always a fascination with wondering how God will turn things around and make everything fall into place. Kinda like those feel-good shows when the good guys get into worst and worst situations but you know they're gonna win in the end.

Meanwhile its Deck the hols with bouts of Coxiella-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la and all the other little bugs with disproportionately long names.

~JcZw~ at 7:07 pm

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Am now in Holiday Inn Melaka, in the aforementioned state of Malaysia. Life has been good =) A fair share of relaxing, listening to God's words, and studying about gonococcus.

Have limited online so shall stop here. But well, will write more about it another day

~JcZw~ at 10:22 pm

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Carolling was fun =) Tiring, but fun. Even though it was a constant battle against "Silent Night" with about only 50% success. But with the preparation leading up to it, and the final culmination in the wards of the hospitals, all other carollings I have done so far pales in comparison! I've never had to take singing so seriously before as I have had to in front of Hanyang's sharp ears.

Thanks to Hanyang and Sean for teaching us the different songs from scratch though!

And the line of the day goes to Daniel Hap for saying "EH! Why the Christmas tree moving by itself!" (there was someone eclipsed by it pushing it along on a trolley tsk).

Sigh besides that, been preparing for church camp. Though I've been looking forward to it, somehow suddenly I feel like I don't really want to tear myself away from Singapore cos there's so much to do. But then, I know that if I stay, I'll still be up to my neck in trainings and all. At least in camp I'll have afternoons off to study MicroB while everyone else is R&Ring. Still, am looking forward to reconnecting with the church people, especially the youths.

Right shall sign off here first. Safe trips to those travelling!

On a side note, I found this song on Youtube. It's impossibly beautiful.



~JcZw~ at 11:14 pm

Thursday, December 11, 2008

IHG training started today. In fact, all my hall activities had stuff on one after another. Dead tiring

Feel that I've improved in handball. My reflexes are definitely faster and better at picking off the long shots. But the way people have been training me, at max lunge there are still gaps in the corners of the goal. And other halls are not going to take long to figure that out. Sigh. There must be a better way to do things. The medial aspect of my knee is all scraped and abraded cos I balked at wearing my tracks to the court at 2-blazing-pm. By the time IHG comes I shall have no skin left there.

How hot was it? Well, I have a tan line on my fingers cos the joints were wrapped in tape while the most proximal and distal parts were bare and so are darker. Tan lines. On the fingers. Wow.

Hallplay dinner was fine. Floorball was fun. Long distance shots are becoming more accurate but sometimes I get the sensation I'm playing 10 seconds of good floorball followed by 5 minutes of idioticity.

Carolling pract tomorrow. Looking forward to it. Sometimes I think of singers' nodules when I'm trying to hit the infernally high notes in "Away in a manger".

And just a thought. Studying about antibiotics like erythromycin is just about as distasteful as actually eating it when I was small. Ah memories of my childhood, asthmatic days...

Sigh sometimes I get the feeling that people are expecting more of me yet I'm not delievering as I should.

~JcZw~ at 2:36 am

Saturday, December 06, 2008

In the near future I shall shift to another blog supplier. I'm beginning to think this blog is becoming a bit too messy and that the other supplier is more user-friendly. Maybe this time I will keep it private, then I can really type whatever I want to without fear of reprisal.

Its been a few days which have gone by very fast. The last week was just going to school, accumulating notes and having fun back in hall. Yes, having fun before people move out. For the hols. For good. A friend commented that she felt that a chapter just closed in our lives. I wonder why I agree, considering that the population of medics from our year has already halved since last year. Maybe its because a lot of people are moving out at once, instead of trickling off slowly like last year. Maybe its because we have gotten to know each other a lot more in the past one-half years so every one that leaves is one whom we know quite well. There will be that much less people making noise  in the dining hall, that much less people coming for CCAs, supper or whatnot. Just like at the end of JC, there's a sense that things will never again be the same as it used to be. 

I wouldn't worry too much about maintaining ties. Once a KEVIIan always a KEVIIan (once owning the jacket, always owning the jacket), and no doubt I'll share the same relationship I do with my friends leaving now as I do with my friends who left after Year 1, a relationship which is not bad (they develop well in their own right). Nevertheless, I treasure the time we've spent in hall and have many fond memories of the days recently passed.

For now I just hope the holidays are productive, yet fun. I will do my duty, but the thought of eating at PGP day after day makes me feel rather ill.

Am quite dinged by the soccer game today. The ground was alternately soft and muddy, and hard and uncompromising. My entire right shin, left thigh and right elbow are badly abraised by sand. Marcus, on seeing the rubor and tumor, excitedly said " You may have Burkholderia pseudomallei! Or maybe Strep pyogenes!" to which I tiredly replied "yes, and pyomyositis from Staph also". Medical students can sometimes be so amusing.

Also had the MCF Christmas party yesterday. Many people, lots of fun, a last hurrah before the hols and the coming CA. Looking around I realise I know so many people in medicine at least by name. And yes, the testimonies did hit deeply, and I found the "We are reason" item incredibly touching and well done. When the pictures of the class and of rag flashed on, it somehow brought home the message closer than any picture of Calvary could.

Yes, a chapter has really closed. We turn now to Hallplay and IHG.

I just hope in the next few weeks I can do my duty and hold fast to what I feel is the right way to go.

~JcZw~ at 7:05 pm

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

I'm a tad annoyed with one group of people.

I'm highly irritated with another group of people.

And I'm sorry about a third group. For not being aware about your situations and being too selfish and preoccupied with mine. I didn't know you felt this way and thought the situation was different from what it actually is.

Sigh. If only I thought things through a bit more half a year ago. Its like the same mistake I keep making in floorball - committing too early.

Urgh. Too many things, too little time.

~JcZw~ at 9:09 pm

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