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Monday, May 29, 2006
In one word, Chinese was hard
In more than one word, Chinese was i-have-never-seen-these-words-before, i-didn't-know-such-words-existed, i-think-i-am-going-to-get-another-C5-or-worst hard. Bold Italic Underline.
Sigh. So the rumours are right. The June paper is harder than the November one. 2 months of preparation and now I'll be spending another two months praying I didn't do it for nothing. Ah whatever. Don't even feel in the mood to take my oral or Listening Compre now.
Moreover, I got a paper cut on my right hand, 31 196 197 and 608 chose to come at the same time when I was still walking along Marine Vista, so I had to wait 15 min in the boiling weather for another bus, there were no good books at the library, AND TO CAP IT ALL OFF I walked into a bouganvilla bush walking back from Kembangan MRT and cut my left hand also. Well done. Complain complain. Sounds like I just emerged from FM. heh.
Right. So now the hols stretch before us, and from now to November its like endless mugging, then 1 month of life before 2 years of brain-numbing activity in the army (or hopefully, the navy or airforce). Though, come to think of it, if you discount the fact that your drill sergeants can be nice or nasty, it's rather like a St. John camp. This time next year, I will probably be thanking God I joined a uniform group in sec. school.
Its funny... its hard to visualize life outside school y'know? Maybe they're right... JC students do lead lives which are too shelthered... I was reading my sister's JC class (02S18) blog a few days back.... Its been like 3 years since they graduated yet they still manage to meet up sometimes.... Although I don't have many memories of my sister being in VJ (other than her description of it being the trigger that made me aim for VJ, no higher or lower. Especially no higher. heh. Wait. It's NOT higher), I guess her class was fun (and really smart)... I wonder if our class will still manage to do the same... meet up as a WHOLE class, like JAE plus minus 1 month that kinda unity... That would be fun ;)
Well, if I've never had a class like 15, I've also never felt more in my element than in St. John.... Not that fencing is bad, but I feel much more comfortable in the environment where authorities etc are all set out clearly... unlike fencing where there is no true leader (As a captain among contemporaries of the same age, you can sorta request them to do stuff, but not force them. Especially since your teacher doesn't help you much)... Come to think of it, while there were some times when I regretted ever laying hands on an epee or foil, I've never regretted being a first aider.... Although sometimes (yes, I'm being frank) I've regretted joining SJ, but I've never felt that what I learnt was pointless.
Sometimes I suddenly miss all the laming around after CCA, the shoe polishing and the times my team has invaded my house preparing for comps etc... Even the hellish tekan sessions which seem to last forever. Heh... I guess St. John to us was where we could find the kind of bond which is more usually found among the members of a single-sex school.
Hmmm... just a random comment... but it would be really fun if in NS I wound up in the same section as a squadmate (whom I can get along with). Lets say I wind up with Wei Lun... We'd telepathy our sergeant to death... =D
Camp is coming up next week... Kinda looking forward to that too, but its going to be 3 days of intensive physical activity, with campfire sandwiched between the individual and team events of the FSI.
The main thing about SJ, which I take great comfort in, is that so long as your friends are suffering something with you, you either have the courage to go on.... or you're shamed into going on (incentive for having girls in St. John. Which guy would dare to say he cannot do something which a girl can? I know some of my squad nursings are perfectly capable of TOC-ing a casualty to boot =D). Its when you endure something on your own without anyone to empathize with you that it gets awfully awful... But there, I'm rambling again.
Alright. I should stop here.... and I should start learning how to sing all the chinese campfire songs again and memorise their lyrics in case there are not enough booklets... heh.
In more than one word, Chinese was i-have-never-seen-these-words-before, i-didn't-know-such-words-existed, i-think-i-am-going-to-get-another-C5-or-worst hard. Bold Italic Underline.
Sigh. So the rumours are right. The June paper is harder than the November one. 2 months of preparation and now I'll be spending another two months praying I didn't do it for nothing. Ah whatever. Don't even feel in the mood to take my oral or Listening Compre now.
Moreover, I got a paper cut on my right hand, 31 196 197 and 608 chose to come at the same time when I was still walking along Marine Vista, so I had to wait 15 min in the boiling weather for another bus, there were no good books at the library, AND TO CAP IT ALL OFF I walked into a bouganvilla bush walking back from Kembangan MRT and cut my left hand also. Well done. Complain complain. Sounds like I just emerged from FM. heh.
Right. So now the hols stretch before us, and from now to November its like endless mugging, then 1 month of life before 2 years of brain-numbing activity in the army (or hopefully, the navy or airforce). Though, come to think of it, if you discount the fact that your drill sergeants can be nice or nasty, it's rather like a St. John camp. This time next year, I will probably be thanking God I joined a uniform group in sec. school.
Its funny... its hard to visualize life outside school y'know? Maybe they're right... JC students do lead lives which are too shelthered... I was reading my sister's JC class (02S18) blog a few days back.... Its been like 3 years since they graduated yet they still manage to meet up sometimes.... Although I don't have many memories of my sister being in VJ (other than her description of it being the trigger that made me aim for VJ, no higher or lower. Especially no higher. heh. Wait. It's NOT higher), I guess her class was fun (and really smart)... I wonder if our class will still manage to do the same... meet up as a WHOLE class, like JAE plus minus 1 month that kinda unity... That would be fun ;)
Well, if I've never had a class like 15, I've also never felt more in my element than in St. John.... Not that fencing is bad, but I feel much more comfortable in the environment where authorities etc are all set out clearly... unlike fencing where there is no true leader (As a captain among contemporaries of the same age, you can sorta request them to do stuff, but not force them. Especially since your teacher doesn't help you much)... Come to think of it, while there were some times when I regretted ever laying hands on an epee or foil, I've never regretted being a first aider.... Although sometimes (yes, I'm being frank) I've regretted joining SJ, but I've never felt that what I learnt was pointless.
Sometimes I suddenly miss all the laming around after CCA, the shoe polishing and the times my team has invaded my house preparing for comps etc... Even the hellish tekan sessions which seem to last forever. Heh... I guess St. John to us was where we could find the kind of bond which is more usually found among the members of a single-sex school.
Hmmm... just a random comment... but it would be really fun if in NS I wound up in the same section as a squadmate (whom I can get along with). Lets say I wind up with Wei Lun... We'd telepathy our sergeant to death... =D
Camp is coming up next week... Kinda looking forward to that too, but its going to be 3 days of intensive physical activity, with campfire sandwiched between the individual and team events of the FSI.
The main thing about SJ, which I take great comfort in, is that so long as your friends are suffering something with you, you either have the courage to go on.... or you're shamed into going on (incentive for having girls in St. John. Which guy would dare to say he cannot do something which a girl can? I know some of my squad nursings are perfectly capable of TOC-ing a casualty to boot =D). Its when you endure something on your own without anyone to empathize with you that it gets awfully awful... But there, I'm rambling again.
Alright. I should stop here.... and I should start learning how to sing all the chinese campfire songs again and memorise their lyrics in case there are not enough booklets... heh.
~JcZw~ at 8:53 pm
Saturday, May 27, 2006
My body hates chinese =(
I slept late last night (owing to the long nap I had in the afternoon) and woke up late today.... and when I tried to study chinese in the afternoon, I had a massive headache suddenly that felt like my brain was being blown out of my ears and so had to retire to my bed (or rather, mattress) again, when I had a lot of weird dreams. I think my endocrine system secretes some hormone that tries to purge chinese from my body, so that it can remain at an "optimum stable state".
Ok skeptcism aside, its time to forget about other activities and concentrate on Chinese.... Its like tidying a room and clearing out the distractions...
"Fencing.... throw out"
"Common Tests.... throw out"
"St. John.... throw out"
like mentally preparing for a competition.. visualisation and all that blah. At present I guess Chinese is sharing my mental space with God which is always there
And its also time to cast aside all unbelief in myself, and in God's ability to justify the effort that I put in. Somehow, maybe its cos many people have been telling this time would be THE time, but I feel more at peace with it than last year, where the failure at HCL was still rankling slightly.
Of course, if it does not turn out well, as there is also a chance of, then I'll think about that at the appropriate time. Maybe I would call it a day then... this term has been filled with too much mental and physical strain due to chinese that I don't think I'd be able to cope in a more stressful Term 3.
But before I cleared my brain (figuratively), it suddenly occured to me that FSI and SJ camp are on the same days!! Ahh nuts! On top of that, Inter-School and N-comp also clash. Blah.
Hmm... My fencing seems to have improved like it has never improved before... Maybe it's cos I've finally learned to counter attack... But also could be due to my V-blade's wire breaking... Cos now Coach has lent me an SM blade with a different grip and its balance is really really good! Even though it's not as light as my blade, but it feels lighter cos the grip and the blade balance each other really well.... Very easy to do binds and counters and double circular parries without losing control of the blade... Now I can actually do an effective disengage =) And not only that, but the flexibility of the SM blade allows it to have a decent flick capabilty! Man, I could go on and on about it the whole night... Bottomline: Its really good!
But this brings me to another dilemna.... Is it me that improved? Or is it because of the blade... In other words, for the sake of my fencing should I trade in my blade? Or should I consider assembling my own from scratch? Whatever the case, I hope I can do well in the Inter-School.... If it includes, say, Pasir Ris Cres, and Tanglin, or SMU, its going to be a really tough fight... Hardly the equal playing field of an A-division tournament that one would expect.
Ah well.... let's just take things one at a time eh?
I slept late last night (owing to the long nap I had in the afternoon) and woke up late today.... and when I tried to study chinese in the afternoon, I had a massive headache suddenly that felt like my brain was being blown out of my ears and so had to retire to my bed (or rather, mattress) again, when I had a lot of weird dreams. I think my endocrine system secretes some hormone that tries to purge chinese from my body, so that it can remain at an "optimum stable state".
Ok skeptcism aside, its time to forget about other activities and concentrate on Chinese.... Its like tidying a room and clearing out the distractions...
"Fencing.... throw out"
"Common Tests.... throw out"
"St. John.... throw out"
like mentally preparing for a competition.. visualisation and all that blah. At present I guess Chinese is sharing my mental space with God which is always there
And its also time to cast aside all unbelief in myself, and in God's ability to justify the effort that I put in. Somehow, maybe its cos many people have been telling this time would be THE time, but I feel more at peace with it than last year, where the failure at HCL was still rankling slightly.
Of course, if it does not turn out well, as there is also a chance of, then I'll think about that at the appropriate time. Maybe I would call it a day then... this term has been filled with too much mental and physical strain due to chinese that I don't think I'd be able to cope in a more stressful Term 3.
But before I cleared my brain (figuratively), it suddenly occured to me that FSI and SJ camp are on the same days!! Ahh nuts! On top of that, Inter-School and N-comp also clash. Blah.
Hmm... My fencing seems to have improved like it has never improved before... Maybe it's cos I've finally learned to counter attack... But also could be due to my V-blade's wire breaking... Cos now Coach has lent me an SM blade with a different grip and its balance is really really good! Even though it's not as light as my blade, but it feels lighter cos the grip and the blade balance each other really well.... Very easy to do binds and counters and double circular parries without losing control of the blade... Now I can actually do an effective disengage =) And not only that, but the flexibility of the SM blade allows it to have a decent flick capabilty! Man, I could go on and on about it the whole night... Bottomline: Its really good!
But this brings me to another dilemna.... Is it me that improved? Or is it because of the blade... In other words, for the sake of my fencing should I trade in my blade? Or should I consider assembling my own from scratch? Whatever the case, I hope I can do well in the Inter-School.... If it includes, say, Pasir Ris Cres, and Tanglin, or SMU, its going to be a really tough fight... Hardly the equal playing field of an A-division tournament that one would expect.
Ah well.... let's just take things one at a time eh?
~JcZw~ at 7:25 pm
Friday, May 26, 2006
Well. Changed the main picture.... made it blurry purposely to cut down on its size.... and hey its not my fault that Clementi Sports Hall has such a nauseating colour.... Much better when it was a pale green, if you ask me.
Well, soccer final yesterday.... To me, the atmosphere was not as good as girls' soccer, cos we weren't near the red shirts, and were quite near MJ, so we kept getting tangling with their cheers... especially since their cheers had astounding similarity to ours, if you'd permit the euphemism (hey, VJC started in 1984 y'know)
Like last year, I was jabbering about various rules to the person on the left, while the person on the right was jabbering about stuff to me.
Like many said, deja vu when MJ scored in almost exactly the same way... it stands out in the memory... the MJ striker outrunning all the yellow defenders, and the goalkeeper in red valiantly making his dive and missing... And the ensuing 4-letter and hokkien phrases coming out... except for the little knot of *beep* non-Victorians sitting beside us who were cheering for MJ. We should have thumped them with the drumsticks... Mr. 33 is super fast...
Unlike last year, we missed the penalty. Vivid also is the memory of Jingyi yelling "HANDBALL!" at me and me yelling "PENALTY!"at her, while Liling was saying "what what?"
Unlike last year, I didn't jump on the foot of the person on my right when the equalizer went in. I jumped on my bag instead -_-"'
Unlike last year, VJ won =) I love the 3rd and 4th goal... its like something out of the EPL haha... Man, our soccer guys are really pro!! They effectively outdid MJ on teamwork and fitness (whereas MJ was killing us on individual skill. I picked out Ivan from the crowd cos of his tricks). Can't believe we actually did the turnaround in about 10 min and win without having to go to penalties AND by more than one goal to boot! I reckon MJ was hoisted onto their own proverbial petard for consuming precious periods of duration of the match...
The 4th goal is what Coach keeps telling us about don't rush.... Talk aboutattack kick parry head riposte score.. Wow I was wishing that soccer had sort of simultaneous hits like in epee... then I wouldn't have been so scared... haha
When I went home last night my heart was going "Thum.... thum..... thumthum... thum... thum.... thumthum"
VJ's soccer's like fantastic... Double victory this year somemore.... Both guys and girls won their matches by 2 goals.... heh... Pro-ed... and of course... with a lot of effort...
____________________________________________________________________
A predicted full day today... Keefe-the-soccer-captain was like "We can't thank you enough, but I bet Mrs Chan can". I bet the Bio S teachers are annoyed....
Some stuff about X-3 ahead. Don't read if you don't want to.
So we went to watch X-men 3... Which honestly is kinda dark... It gives me the impression that they created too many characters at one go, and so they had to kill off some pretty quick... and they started from the main ones!!!
Well, at least Shadowcat and Iceman got big parts this time, and Iceman turned icy =D WHY-DOESN'T-CYCLOPS-EVER-GET-A-BIG-PART!!!
Ok then we ate and retired to our respective homes (where most of us probably went to sleep).
Well, one week of thorough excitement. 3 days to Chinese, 1 week to NS Medical. Hope they don't discover I have some deadly disease or something.
____________________________________________________________________
Innundated Jalan Besar Stadium
Supporters
Eventual victory =)
The... hmmm... human photocopying agency in the concourse... I've used 3 euphemisms in this post already!!
Mr He-who-dressed-up-as-a-mint-ice-cream in front of Cathay.
Goodnight!
Well, soccer final yesterday.... To me, the atmosphere was not as good as girls' soccer, cos we weren't near the red shirts, and were quite near MJ, so we kept getting tangling with their cheers... especially since their cheers had astounding similarity to ours, if you'd permit the euphemism (hey, VJC started in 1984 y'know)
Like last year, I was jabbering about various rules to the person on the left, while the person on the right was jabbering about stuff to me.
Like many said, deja vu when MJ scored in almost exactly the same way... it stands out in the memory... the MJ striker outrunning all the yellow defenders, and the goalkeeper in red valiantly making his dive and missing... And the ensuing 4-letter and hokkien phrases coming out... except for the little knot of *beep* non-Victorians sitting beside us who were cheering for MJ. We should have thumped them with the drumsticks... Mr. 33 is super fast...
Unlike last year, we missed the penalty. Vivid also is the memory of Jingyi yelling "HANDBALL!" at me and me yelling "PENALTY!"at her, while Liling was saying "what what?"
Unlike last year, I didn't jump on the foot of the person on my right when the equalizer went in. I jumped on my bag instead -_-"'
Unlike last year, VJ won =) I love the 3rd and 4th goal... its like something out of the EPL haha... Man, our soccer guys are really pro!! They effectively outdid MJ on teamwork and fitness (whereas MJ was killing us on individual skill. I picked out Ivan from the crowd cos of his tricks). Can't believe we actually did the turnaround in about 10 min and win without having to go to penalties AND by more than one goal to boot! I reckon MJ was hoisted onto their own proverbial petard for consuming precious periods of duration of the match...
The 4th goal is what Coach keeps telling us about don't rush.... Talk about
When I went home last night my heart was going "Thum.... thum..... thumthum... thum... thum.... thumthum"
VJ's soccer's like fantastic... Double victory this year somemore.... Both guys and girls won their matches by 2 goals.... heh... Pro-ed... and of course... with a lot of effort...
____________________________________________________________________
A predicted full day today... Keefe-the-soccer-captain was like "We can't thank you enough, but I bet Mrs Chan can". I bet the Bio S teachers are annoyed....
Some stuff about X-3 ahead. Don't read if you don't want to.
So we went to watch X-men 3... Which honestly is kinda dark... It gives me the impression that they created too many characters at one go, and so they had to kill off some pretty quick... and they started from the main ones!!!
Well, at least Shadowcat and Iceman got big parts this time, and Iceman turned icy =D WHY-DOESN'T-CYCLOPS-EVER-GET-A-BIG-PART!!!
Ok then we ate and retired to our respective homes (where most of us probably went to sleep).
Well, one week of thorough excitement. 3 days to Chinese, 1 week to NS Medical. Hope they don't discover I have some deadly disease or something.
____________________________________________________________________
Innundated Jalan Besar Stadium
Supporters
Eventual victory =)
The... hmmm... human photocopying agency in the concourse... I've used 3 euphemisms in this post already!!
Mr He-who-dressed-up-as-a-mint-ice-cream in front of Cathay.
Goodnight!
~JcZw~ at 10:33 pm
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Went to watch the Soccer Girls, of which two were classmates and one was a squadmate, at Jalan Besar stadium today.... it was a nail-biting match, and my SA node, dendrons, axons, mitochondria, and blahblah really got a workout =D also the bits of my voicebox I thought I had left behind in st. john... They won 2-0!! Fantastic, and the first goal was utterly beautiful. One moment we were watching the free kick, muttering "Lampard, Gerrad, not Beckham" under our breaths and next moment we saw a spectacular curling kick right at the unprotected area of the opponent's net!
Some pictures... although they're quite grainy, and not as good as Prata's but still...
Before the match.
Warmup.
After the match (my apologies for not being able to use my phone during the match... I was too busy clapping and yelling "Go VJ go VJ go")
Super happy for them! And its such an inspiration also... it sorta kicked me back into reality and make me want to salvage my situation...
So rushed back home, grabbed my fencing stuff and chiong-ed to FM..... presently I'm now at home with an exfoliating left foot and an aching right foot and hand (cos my tall teammate attempted THREE abortive flicks on my much abused right arm... tsktsk =D)... Today was quite hiong... haha... although it took me quite long to get warmed up.... (16-15 victory over Gerad wasn't as good as I would have liked =/)
This is triggered off by watching BBC's "SAS Survival Secrets"
Maurice is going to kill me for writing this. He already had that look outside FM. Heheh. By the way, Maurice, you better get yourself well soon, or you'll be in no condition for FSI. =)
A sniper plays a waiting game. He sits in his hide and waits for the time to strike for days or even weeks, for that one crucial shot. Every day he mentally prepares himself. But there is always a long gap between the shots he takes. And when he does fire, he scores one hit at a time. Maybe two. Maybe more. But it is never a lot. There is always time to prepare, but for this his skills are honed to knife-edge, seared into muscle memory, so that his job can be achieved. One shot into the vital area to win his battle. There is a lot of pressure for the shot to go through, but he rarely misses, he delievers the goods time after time. Especially since he's so well trained. But one has to respect the sheer endurance of the sniper... the hours put into the preparation for his crucial attempt, and the length of time he has to be under pressure
A soldier who wields a shotgun, on the other hand, does a fast and furious battle. With each shot, he has to recock the gun and be ready to fire again and short notice. His skills lie more in reacting quickly to changing circumstances. With each pull of the trigger, a large blast is released, and he can score multiple times. After each shot, he has to refresh himself much faster than the sniper. Of course, he will have to hit his opponent many more times with the pellets rather than a heavy cal. sniper round. But if he does this, he wins his battle nonetheless. Like the sniper, he is drilled time after time, but the skills he learn are oh-so different. During the battle, there is no room of error. Pressure is tremendously high. But his battles last but one day. At the end of the day he's either a winner, or dead. Or injured.
In a siege situation, both people perform different tasks. Both aim to achieve the same thing: The winning of the battle. Both are important in their own right. Both have their own skills. But they do it in different ways.
Fencing, and its tournaments, is like a shotgun. Other sports are like sniper rifles. Why? Go use your imagination. Ok maybe its a bad illustration, but if you can see what my mind shows, it will make sense... Haha...
If the school didn't notice the first win, then I guess all that's left for us to do is to win the next one. We've beaten the odds twice. Let's do it again.
Soccer guys' match tomorrow. Go Victoria!
Some pictures... although they're quite grainy, and not as good as Prata's but still...
Before the match.
Warmup.
After the match (my apologies for not being able to use my phone during the match... I was too busy clapping and yelling "Go VJ go VJ go")
Super happy for them! And its such an inspiration also... it sorta kicked me back into reality and make me want to salvage my situation...
So rushed back home, grabbed my fencing stuff and chiong-ed to FM..... presently I'm now at home with an exfoliating left foot and an aching right foot and hand (cos my tall teammate attempted THREE abortive flicks on my much abused right arm... tsktsk =D)... Today was quite hiong... haha... although it took me quite long to get warmed up.... (16-15 victory over Gerad wasn't as good as I would have liked =/)
This is triggered off by watching BBC's "SAS Survival Secrets"
Maurice is going to kill me for writing this. He already had that look outside FM. Heheh. By the way, Maurice, you better get yourself well soon, or you'll be in no condition for FSI. =)
A sniper plays a waiting game. He sits in his hide and waits for the time to strike for days or even weeks, for that one crucial shot. Every day he mentally prepares himself. But there is always a long gap between the shots he takes. And when he does fire, he scores one hit at a time. Maybe two. Maybe more. But it is never a lot. There is always time to prepare, but for this his skills are honed to knife-edge, seared into muscle memory, so that his job can be achieved. One shot into the vital area to win his battle. There is a lot of pressure for the shot to go through, but he rarely misses, he delievers the goods time after time. Especially since he's so well trained. But one has to respect the sheer endurance of the sniper... the hours put into the preparation for his crucial attempt, and the length of time he has to be under pressure
A soldier who wields a shotgun, on the other hand, does a fast and furious battle. With each shot, he has to recock the gun and be ready to fire again and short notice. His skills lie more in reacting quickly to changing circumstances. With each pull of the trigger, a large blast is released, and he can score multiple times. After each shot, he has to refresh himself much faster than the sniper. Of course, he will have to hit his opponent many more times with the pellets rather than a heavy cal. sniper round. But if he does this, he wins his battle nonetheless. Like the sniper, he is drilled time after time, but the skills he learn are oh-so different. During the battle, there is no room of error. Pressure is tremendously high. But his battles last but one day. At the end of the day he's either a winner, or dead. Or injured.
In a siege situation, both people perform different tasks. Both aim to achieve the same thing: The winning of the battle. Both are important in their own right. Both have their own skills. But they do it in different ways.
Fencing, and its tournaments, is like a shotgun. Other sports are like sniper rifles. Why? Go use your imagination. Ok maybe its a bad illustration, but if you can see what my mind shows, it will make sense... Haha...
If the school didn't notice the first win, then I guess all that's left for us to do is to win the next one. We've beaten the odds twice. Let's do it again.
Soccer guys' match tomorrow. Go Victoria!
~JcZw~ at 11:18 pm
Monday, May 22, 2006
When a casualty is crushed by a heavy object, urea and other toxins from the cells are trapped at the region of the injury. After a length of time, if the object is removed, these toxins rush back to the heart, along the passages of the vena cavae. The heart races. The lungs draw breathe furiously. Septic shock sets in, and the ECG flatlines.
I don't know how to describe my emotions at this point in time. Its been the same for the past three weeks... sheer exhaustion, still the occasional bout of insomnia, the panic attacks and all... There is not enough space for everything in my brain.
Its impossible to write out my thought processes here. You'd just get a jumble of static, and what you can make out in the clutter wouldn't sound very nice either. Just pure confusion (not unlike this post). I had to count my row 4 times today during chem lect to distribute papers cos I kept losing count no matter how hard I tried to concentrate. Think I'm going to become schizo in the near future. Who wouldn't when you have to be so many things at one go. I wish so much that I could just be myself, and the positions I hold without having to be a secretary, senior, a teacher-in-charge, a coach (in the parlance of the average sport) and so much more all rolled into one. I have enough worrying about my own fencing performance, my results, a chinese exam which is so within reach, and which I still so don't understand. I don't need the aggravation from outside. I'm well aware of our dire straits. I don't need the reminders that things are going badly, and that fencing, in the eyes of the school has budged maybe a nanometer. I don't need the lack of energy and the incessant worry.
They just go on and on and they never realise that the line "Let's just close down fencing" haunts the team captain night after night. It was barely bearable a year ago, but when people still expressed doubts now... No matter what you do, what you win. Watching your CCA stagnate, its capability questioned, while everyone else rushes ahead. Heartbreaking, to say the least. Despite the effort.
I just need a person to talk to and tell that person everything that's corroding my being. A person that can understand fully what I'm feeling. Can there ever be enough time and can there be a person with enough patience? How could you explain 1 year's worth of what you yourself and no one else feels. Maybe that's why I've resorted to talking to my blog. Silly dumb immature.
Because people usually just think "not again" or "you have an attitude problem". Thanks.
Totally uninspiring. Dear God, please point me back on the right path and let me last out the year
I don't know how to describe my emotions at this point in time. Its been the same for the past three weeks... sheer exhaustion, still the occasional bout of insomnia, the panic attacks and all... There is not enough space for everything in my brain.
Its impossible to write out my thought processes here. You'd just get a jumble of static, and what you can make out in the clutter wouldn't sound very nice either. Just pure confusion (not unlike this post). I had to count my row 4 times today during chem lect to distribute papers cos I kept losing count no matter how hard I tried to concentrate. Think I'm going to become schizo in the near future. Who wouldn't when you have to be so many things at one go. I wish so much that I could just be myself, and the positions I hold without having to be a secretary, senior, a teacher-in-charge, a coach (in the parlance of the average sport) and so much more all rolled into one. I have enough worrying about my own fencing performance, my results, a chinese exam which is so within reach, and which I still so don't understand. I don't need the aggravation from outside. I'm well aware of our dire straits. I don't need the reminders that things are going badly, and that fencing, in the eyes of the school has budged maybe a nanometer. I don't need the lack of energy and the incessant worry.
They just go on and on and they never realise that the line "Let's just close down fencing" haunts the team captain night after night. It was barely bearable a year ago, but when people still expressed doubts now... No matter what you do, what you win. Watching your CCA stagnate, its capability questioned, while everyone else rushes ahead. Heartbreaking, to say the least. Despite the effort.
I just need a person to talk to and tell that person everything that's corroding my being. A person that can understand fully what I'm feeling. Can there ever be enough time and can there be a person with enough patience? How could you explain 1 year's worth of what you yourself and no one else feels. Maybe that's why I've resorted to talking to my blog. Silly dumb immature.
Because people usually just think "not again" or "you have an attitude problem". Thanks.
Totally uninspiring. Dear God, please point me back on the right path and let me last out the year
~JcZw~ at 10:56 pm
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Half day yesterday, since we were supposed to go and support bball finals... I wonder how many of our class actually went though, since the majority went out to watch Da Vinci Code... For myself, I was about to go back to AHS to get my letter for uniform group members when I realised they were having a day off (their polling day holiday).
Lucky I have a brother, otherwise I would have made a wasted trip back.
Well, in the end I elected to go home and catch up on sleep... For two cents I would have gone for a more entertaining activity, but my right foot was hurting like fury around the metatarsal region... Didn't notice that until I had some shooting pain while walking (at normal speed, mind) to assembly... Probably overstretched it while fencing on thursday.... With Maurice and Fusheng (who's even taller than Maurice) there, the need to fleche and jump and run about (most of the strain being on the toe tips) was constant... Blah. Its very unfair that short people have to have so much speed to kill a tall person... Still, its makes CQC much easier!
So went to Bedok Library and borrowed 4 very entertaining books, including one more high-tech Navy novel by James H. Cobb... yay! haha... I think they're gonna pretty much occupy my weekend when I should be doing Radioactivity etc....
Oh yar, and Harmoc concert tonight, which Prata bribed me 4 dollars for an 8 dollar ticket xD haha...
Anyway, some of the more entertaining MSN conversations yesterday:
Wei Lun and I asked each other the same question regarding the soccer finals next week at almost the same second. Old habits formed through 3 years of being in the same comp team die hard...
And how often do you get to talk to someone while your and her MSN's both show that the other party is offline? Must be something to do with Windows vs Mac (haha, alright Liling, no insult intended)...
Well, I shall shove off now... see y'all!
Lucky I have a brother, otherwise I would have made a wasted trip back.
Well, in the end I elected to go home and catch up on sleep... For two cents I would have gone for a more entertaining activity, but my right foot was hurting like fury around the metatarsal region... Didn't notice that until I had some shooting pain while walking (at normal speed, mind) to assembly... Probably overstretched it while fencing on thursday.... With Maurice and Fusheng (who's even taller than Maurice) there, the need to fleche and jump and run about (most of the strain being on the toe tips) was constant... Blah. Its very unfair that short people have to have so much speed to kill a tall person... Still, its makes CQC much easier!
So went to Bedok Library and borrowed 4 very entertaining books, including one more high-tech Navy novel by James H. Cobb... yay! haha... I think they're gonna pretty much occupy my weekend when I should be doing Radioactivity etc....
Oh yar, and Harmoc concert tonight, which Prata bribed me 4 dollars for an 8 dollar ticket xD haha...
Anyway, some of the more entertaining MSN conversations yesterday:
Wei Lun and I asked each other the same question regarding the soccer finals next week at almost the same second. Old habits formed through 3 years of being in the same comp team die hard...
And how often do you get to talk to someone while your and her MSN's both show that the other party is offline? Must be something to do with Windows vs Mac (haha, alright Liling, no insult intended)...
Well, I shall shove off now... see y'all!
~JcZw~ at 1:59 pm
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Whahoo!! The week gets better (in terms of results, not in terms of how much I've been able to sleep... sleep is becoming an invaluable commodity). I got an A2 for my Chinese prelim!!
The Chinese teacher has been acting very funny for the past few days.... On tuesday when Poying walked past and waved then she was like "Ni zai geng wo zhao shou ah? (You're waving at me)" To which Poying replied "Bu shi, zhi shi zu ta hao yun. (No, only wishing him luck)" To which Ms Tan replied in english "I'm sure he will". Hoho. Hey the compo wasn't so bad after all, they actually bought the story about the dog and I got a 25/35 (About 71+%). WHAT WENT WRONG LAST YEAR! Ok haha.... don't worry, I'm over that already...
For Paper 2, compre saved my neck -_-"' Whats the world coming to, when compre, of all things, is saving my neck... Haha but I'm not complaining.... Thanks to God who gave me inspiration that day. I hope I will maintain during the actual thing...
We handed over fencing on wednesday, I think, the earliest sports group to do so... Went smoothly, and I really hope the juniors can commit, and continue fighting for fencing, both in terms of admin as well as in competition. Hope they support each other, because if it weren't for people like Maurice and Victoria, I'm not sure how long I would have lasted myself.... But sad, my fencing for VJ in the future remains to be seen... In the future I'll probably fence as an alumni, or if not, I'll just go under FM... Still, I'll miss sitting out FM chiong-ing CRV tuitorials, or reading up on Nuclear Physics and falling asleep over it and Coach coming along saying "You're too tired Jon, go home!" hahah...
And of course, our tradition of complaining whenever we walk down the steps in the warehouse... Speaking of which, I got a nice pit in the leg due to tangling with Kimie in close quarters (very pretty... its even in the shape of an epee tip... but its right where my joint is always rubbing against my long pants!).... To which my mother said "Don't worry, you won't lose your leg.... yet."Gra.... blood stains on the inside of my track pants to boot...
Oh yar. There's a new food stall next to FM.... the food is nice but the feller is really unhygenic... He handles food and money with the SAME HAND!!! Ewwwww... Thats a pity cos the food is stuff I like.... Dumpling / fishball / prawn / minced meat noodles blahblah with a lot of caixin... haha...
Well, just a picture:
LEDs again on tuesday..... This are the effects when you take a photo right down the beam of light from the LED... hope I didn't fry the lens of the camera....
Well, I guess thats it for now then...
I know what its like to be injured in the middle of a tournament. Its isn't pleasant, but when you have the support of your friends, it does help. But for what this is worth, cheer up Charmaine... ossis is behind you, and I'm sure your team is too =)
The Chinese teacher has been acting very funny for the past few days.... On tuesday when Poying walked past and waved then she was like "Ni zai geng wo zhao shou ah? (You're waving at me)" To which Poying replied "Bu shi, zhi shi zu ta hao yun. (No, only wishing him luck)" To which Ms Tan replied in english "I'm sure he will". Hoho. Hey the compo wasn't so bad after all, they actually bought the story about the dog and I got a 25/35 (About 71+%). WHAT WENT WRONG LAST YEAR! Ok haha.... don't worry, I'm over that already...
For Paper 2, compre saved my neck -_-"' Whats the world coming to, when compre, of all things, is saving my neck... Haha but I'm not complaining.... Thanks to God who gave me inspiration that day. I hope I will maintain during the actual thing...
We handed over fencing on wednesday, I think, the earliest sports group to do so... Went smoothly, and I really hope the juniors can commit, and continue fighting for fencing, both in terms of admin as well as in competition. Hope they support each other, because if it weren't for people like Maurice and Victoria, I'm not sure how long I would have lasted myself.... But sad, my fencing for VJ in the future remains to be seen... In the future I'll probably fence as an alumni, or if not, I'll just go under FM... Still, I'll miss sitting out FM chiong-ing CRV tuitorials, or reading up on Nuclear Physics and falling asleep over it and Coach coming along saying "You're too tired Jon, go home!" hahah...
And of course, our tradition of complaining whenever we walk down the steps in the warehouse... Speaking of which, I got a nice pit in the leg due to tangling with Kimie in close quarters (very pretty... its even in the shape of an epee tip... but its right where my joint is always rubbing against my long pants!).... To which my mother said "Don't worry, you won't lose your leg.... yet."Gra.... blood stains on the inside of my track pants to boot...
Oh yar. There's a new food stall next to FM.... the food is nice but the feller is really unhygenic... He handles food and money with the SAME HAND!!! Ewwwww... Thats a pity cos the food is stuff I like.... Dumpling / fishball / prawn / minced meat noodles blahblah with a lot of caixin... haha...
Well, just a picture:
LEDs again on tuesday..... This are the effects when you take a photo right down the beam of light from the LED... hope I didn't fry the lens of the camera....
Well, I guess thats it for now then...
I know what its like to be injured in the middle of a tournament. Its isn't pleasant, but when you have the support of your friends, it does help. But for what this is worth, cheer up Charmaine... ossis is behind you, and I'm sure your team is too =)
~JcZw~ at 11:42 pm
Monday, May 15, 2006
YaYness! NAPFA is over!
Today was a day of running against the clock... Fighting time during 2.4, situps, shuttle run and a Chinese Prelim set by a person with a warped sense of humour, whoever that person is...
Secured my NAPFA gold by the skin of my teeth, quite literally, j-u-s-t passing my SBJ with a round 230 cm =) Right on the limit for a 17 year old guy...
So 2.4 was first, which I did with Enjie... Ran and ran and on the 5th round Mr Peter Wee was like "9 min 30 sec" so I went "ok" and decided to slack and conserve energy in the last round, so I finished with 11.30. Not as good as say, Sec. 4, but it'll do.... Enjie was not far behind me also... Mr Wee was very nice, like yelling encouragement for us every lap... haha...
I got scolded during SBJ cos I didn't know that falling forward with your hand OUTSIDE the mat was not valid. Blah. He was like "You know in NS you only can have 2 attempts!?" yea. Ok. At least now I know whats not a valid jump... But he scraped me through with 230 lor. Shuttle Run and Situps also deproved cos I was feeling really drained after the run, but my Sit and Reach and Chinups were surprisingly improved... huh? Well, I'm not complaining... got 22 out of 30 points, which I'm thankful for... Now I can look forward to PE (if there's anymore left) with people stressing about NAPFA over and over =)
Chinese Paper 1 was not really good. One of the questions which I would usually do was on Campus Superstar. Its the worst kept secret that I don't watch TV and so know nothing about Campus Superstar, its format, or its judges, besides the fact that a certain Yvonne Chua took part in it! So in the end I wrote another one about how my friend broke a vase belonging to my mother and I was forced to tell a lie by blaming it on my dog or something like that... Totally out of my league, cos it did not rain and no one went to hospital... Sorry Liling, ChuaH and Amanda and any other dog lovers for using the dog.... but cats never bump into things, and hamsters don't possess the mass to topple over an object it collides with.
While we're on the subject, I don't know how to write hamster in Chinese.
Paper 2... luck of the draw as usual... Compre was easy, but the rest weren't. Sigh whatever... At least its only the prelim and this time I managed to concentrate throughout the whole exam without my attentions shifting...
Needless to say, its been super tiring and I'm off now. Goodnight...
Today was a day of running against the clock... Fighting time during 2.4, situps, shuttle run and a Chinese Prelim set by a person with a warped sense of humour, whoever that person is...
Secured my NAPFA gold by the skin of my teeth, quite literally, j-u-s-t passing my SBJ with a round 230 cm =) Right on the limit for a 17 year old guy...
So 2.4 was first, which I did with Enjie... Ran and ran and on the 5th round Mr Peter Wee was like "9 min 30 sec" so I went "ok" and decided to slack and conserve energy in the last round, so I finished with 11.30. Not as good as say, Sec. 4, but it'll do.... Enjie was not far behind me also... Mr Wee was very nice, like yelling encouragement for us every lap... haha...
I got scolded during SBJ cos I didn't know that falling forward with your hand OUTSIDE the mat was not valid. Blah. He was like "You know in NS you only can have 2 attempts!?" yea. Ok. At least now I know whats not a valid jump... But he scraped me through with 230 lor. Shuttle Run and Situps also deproved cos I was feeling really drained after the run, but my Sit and Reach and Chinups were surprisingly improved... huh? Well, I'm not complaining... got 22 out of 30 points, which I'm thankful for... Now I can look forward to PE (if there's anymore left) with people stressing about NAPFA over and over =)
Chinese Paper 1 was not really good. One of the questions which I would usually do was on Campus Superstar. Its the worst kept secret that I don't watch TV and so know nothing about Campus Superstar, its format, or its judges, besides the fact that a certain Yvonne Chua took part in it! So in the end I wrote another one about how my friend broke a vase belonging to my mother and I was forced to tell a lie by blaming it on my dog or something like that... Totally out of my league, cos it did not rain and no one went to hospital... Sorry Liling, ChuaH and Amanda and any other dog lovers for using the dog.... but cats never bump into things, and hamsters don't possess the mass to topple over an object it collides with.
While we're on the subject, I don't know how to write hamster in Chinese.
Paper 2... luck of the draw as usual... Compre was easy, but the rest weren't. Sigh whatever... At least its only the prelim and this time I managed to concentrate throughout the whole exam without my attentions shifting...
Needless to say, its been super tiring and I'm off now. Goodnight...
~JcZw~ at 9:24 pm
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Ok. Du to feedback that my song was getting on people's nerves (due to them having to turn off their music when viewing it), I've removed it... not that I mind though... I made the decision on my own and not under duress or peer pressure =) I'll bring back another if I feel like it next time.
*For those who don't know, the Biggles series is about this pilot called Biggles, who together with a bunch of friends goes around the globe solving mysteries and crimes etc. These adventures also comprise World Wars 1 and 2, the Cold War, the Korean War and is written by Captain W.E. Johns
"Biggles Delivers the Goods" is an inspiring book cos its one in which Biggles gets a consecutive series of shocks one after another yet manages to remain calm, which includes:
1. Getting his cousin (my favourite character) captured by the enemy
2. Running short of fuel
3. Have immenient risk of invasion of their island
4. Their ally's home being overrun
5. Their supply ship supposedly getting captured
How enviable that he managed to keep a level head throughout. I'm sure if he'd gotten C5 for his Chinese, done badly for his Chem SPA, or gotten a massive nosebleed-resembling-Ebola he would have been able to cope also. It shows that one is not as unflappable as one should be, more's the pity. Sigh =/
Well, I went running just now for the first time in dunno how long (excluding PE and fencing). Ran from my house across the hill that leads to the Chai Chee area and back again in 17 min 52 sec... Not too bad... I didn't get a stitch until 3/4 through the distance but I'm sure I was faster last time.... But at least I'm back on track. Tomorrow ought to go well, just that
a) I ran at 6.30 pm when the weather was considerably cooler than 9.15 am.
b) I didn't do 5 items before that
c) My nosebleed is still coming on and off. If it happens tomorrow its going to be mighty inconvenient, not to mention highly embarrassing....
On the other hand, I was running more than 2.4 km....
But we'll see how it goes tomorrow.... Hopefully the two sets of stuff would balance out. But if I don't pass, then as Maurice says, "Maybe you'll be able to bring someone to Christ in your extra 2 months". I hope I can reach 41 for sit-and-reach again.... man...
I totally cannot remember any Chinese at the moment... And my *beep* prelim is TOMORROW!! I still don't see how describing the beauty of a girl's hair, the way the dreary weather reflects your gloomy mood, or the feeling of proverbial maggots that are chewing your insides when you feel guilty have anything to do with real life (in fact, I don't ini English either). I'm like totally a literary caveman.
But theoretically, I should be able to get a B4 at least, taking into consideration that I'm not allowed to use dictionaries.... Paper 1 should go ok if I have inspiration and can remember all the nice sentences. Paper 2... well, depends on your luck and all... TPH expects me to get a 1 though =/ But as my sister said "Good! Go for it!", so I guess I shall... haha...
Oh yar... my sister also said something interesting yesterday.... We happened to be talking about how we were more memory oriented and thus more suited to taking Bio, and I was saying how I should have done Bio Chem in AHS then gone to S2 in VJC, to which she replied "Physics is a small price to pay for how fun your class is" or something like that.... Quite true also... haha...
Alright anyway I should be off to cram more Chinese into my brain.. The sooner its over, the sooner I can get back to fencing and N-comp training... Hope I'm not killing myself and my future over CCAs...
Just no time to stop and get away
'Cos I work so hard to make it everyday
-Neutron Dance.
Did they choose this song as VJ's "first mass dance" cos they knew 22 years down the road this is what the students would be feeling? Creepy...
NS sounds fun according to Chee Keen and Yen Chin
Randomness...
*For those who don't know, the Biggles series is about this pilot called Biggles, who together with a bunch of friends goes around the globe solving mysteries and crimes etc. These adventures also comprise World Wars 1 and 2, the Cold War, the Korean War and is written by Captain W.E. Johns
"Biggles Delivers the Goods" is an inspiring book cos its one in which Biggles gets a consecutive series of shocks one after another yet manages to remain calm, which includes:
1. Getting his cousin (my favourite character) captured by the enemy
2. Running short of fuel
3. Have immenient risk of invasion of their island
4. Their ally's home being overrun
5. Their supply ship supposedly getting captured
How enviable that he managed to keep a level head throughout. I'm sure if he'd gotten C5 for his Chinese, done badly for his Chem SPA, or gotten a massive nosebleed-resembling-Ebola he would have been able to cope also. It shows that one is not as unflappable as one should be, more's the pity. Sigh =/
Well, I went running just now for the first time in dunno how long (excluding PE and fencing). Ran from my house across the hill that leads to the Chai Chee area and back again in 17 min 52 sec... Not too bad... I didn't get a stitch until 3/4 through the distance but I'm sure I was faster last time.... But at least I'm back on track. Tomorrow ought to go well, just that
a) I ran at 6.30 pm when the weather was considerably cooler than 9.15 am.
b) I didn't do 5 items before that
c) My nosebleed is still coming on and off. If it happens tomorrow its going to be mighty inconvenient, not to mention highly embarrassing....
On the other hand, I was running more than 2.4 km....
But we'll see how it goes tomorrow.... Hopefully the two sets of stuff would balance out. But if I don't pass, then as Maurice says, "Maybe you'll be able to bring someone to Christ in your extra 2 months". I hope I can reach 41 for sit-and-reach again.... man...
I totally cannot remember any Chinese at the moment... And my *beep* prelim is TOMORROW!! I still don't see how describing the beauty of a girl's hair, the way the dreary weather reflects your gloomy mood, or the feeling of proverbial maggots that are chewing your insides when you feel guilty have anything to do with real life (in fact, I don't ini English either). I'm like totally a literary caveman.
But theoretically, I should be able to get a B4 at least, taking into consideration that I'm not allowed to use dictionaries.... Paper 1 should go ok if I have inspiration and can remember all the nice sentences. Paper 2... well, depends on your luck and all... TPH expects me to get a 1 though =/ But as my sister said "Good! Go for it!", so I guess I shall... haha...
Oh yar... my sister also said something interesting yesterday.... We happened to be talking about how we were more memory oriented and thus more suited to taking Bio, and I was saying how I should have done Bio Chem in AHS then gone to S2 in VJC, to which she replied "Physics is a small price to pay for how fun your class is" or something like that.... Quite true also... haha...
Alright anyway I should be off to cram more Chinese into my brain.. The sooner its over, the sooner I can get back to fencing and N-comp training... Hope I'm not killing myself and my future over CCAs...
Just no time to stop and get away
'Cos I work so hard to make it everyday
-Neutron Dance.
Did they choose this song as VJ's "first mass dance" cos they knew 22 years down the road this is what the students would be feeling? Creepy...
NS sounds fun according to Chee Keen and Yen Chin
Randomness...
~JcZw~ at 8:41 pm
Friday, May 12, 2006
Haha... my insomnia is slowly receeding... it'd better... I'm gonna need every ATP molecule on Monday, given the number of stressful things that are happening in one day... It would just be a joke if I fell asleep during the exam...
Ok... so the week started off with *NAPFA* and watching (with LiLing and Enjie) Girls' Soccer thump RJ 4-0... cool... Although according to Christl RJ had at least one good player who was "the one that always broke away from the defence", to which I said "oh, you mean it was always the same one?"
oops
The ongoing match at Jalan Besar Stadium with its vaunted astral turf, just a rifle-shot away from Lavender MRT and a sniper-rifle-shot away from SJ HQ... Well, anyway wishing the soccer girls all the best in their remaining games, and for Charmaine to continue to have uneventful matches =) it would be cool to have two soccer finals this year!
Oh yes... we were also playing with LEDs during phy prac, in which Enjie scrounged as many batteries as he could so that we could make our own set of Christmas lights...
unlit
lit
Now, tuesday was an exciting day for myself, my chinese teacher, Phoon, Gerry and ChuaH. I had a spectacular nosebleed during chinese class which made the words "haemophilia", "diabetes" and "ebola" go running around in my head... I thought i was going to bleed to death and "how-much-of-my-6-litres-of-blood-do-i-have-left" kinda thing...
Ah well, thanks you all, for helping out... I really got a little weird-ed out, having never seen so much blood emerge from a single orifice in my life... Hey come to think of it... the person whom I've first aid-ed most often in my life is myself....
Fencing training is going ok for the Year 1s... their progress is better than us last year I think (just that the members of the team take private lessons), hope they can do well in the Inter-School this year... Must look to our own training too... My fencing seems to have atrophied since Novices... Jon Boon has also improved massively! Good good... if we can maintain the standard... then VJ's rise from a non-fencing school to now will be kinda astronomical!
Yesterday was interesting.... My epee got de-wired after the guard slipped and severed the wire... so used Eldon's left handed french grip against Zi Xian and won 15-14... but my control was so poor... I couldn't parry and his bind could literally knock the blade from my hand... -_-'"
Just a random pic:
My brother asked "Why is that man lying on the giant book?"
Anyway thats it for now... actually it was just an excuse to come and post photos... heheh cheers!
Oh yes... i nearly forgot... my silver mirror is still silvery!!!!
Ok... so the week started off with *NAPFA* and watching (with LiLing and Enjie) Girls' Soccer thump RJ 4-0... cool... Although according to Christl RJ had at least one good player who was "the one that always broke away from the defence", to which I said "oh, you mean it was always the same one?"
oops
The ongoing match at Jalan Besar Stadium with its vaunted astral turf, just a rifle-shot away from Lavender MRT and a sniper-rifle-shot away from SJ HQ... Well, anyway wishing the soccer girls all the best in their remaining games, and for Charmaine to continue to have uneventful matches =) it would be cool to have two soccer finals this year!
Oh yes... we were also playing with LEDs during phy prac, in which Enjie scrounged as many batteries as he could so that we could make our own set of Christmas lights...
unlit
lit
Now, tuesday was an exciting day for myself, my chinese teacher, Phoon, Gerry and ChuaH. I had a spectacular nosebleed during chinese class which made the words "haemophilia", "diabetes" and "ebola" go running around in my head... I thought i was going to bleed to death and "how-much-of-my-6-litres-of-blood-do-i-have-left" kinda thing...
Ah well, thanks you all, for helping out... I really got a little weird-ed out, having never seen so much blood emerge from a single orifice in my life... Hey come to think of it... the person whom I've first aid-ed most often in my life is myself....
Fencing training is going ok for the Year 1s... their progress is better than us last year I think (just that the members of the team take private lessons), hope they can do well in the Inter-School this year... Must look to our own training too... My fencing seems to have atrophied since Novices... Jon Boon has also improved massively! Good good... if we can maintain the standard... then VJ's rise from a non-fencing school to now will be kinda astronomical!
Yesterday was interesting.... My epee got de-wired after the guard slipped and severed the wire... so used Eldon's left handed french grip against Zi Xian and won 15-14... but my control was so poor... I couldn't parry and his bind could literally knock the blade from my hand... -_-'"
Just a random pic:
My brother asked "Why is that man lying on the giant book?"
Anyway thats it for now... actually it was just an excuse to come and post photos... heheh cheers!
Oh yes... i nearly forgot... my silver mirror is still silvery!!!!
~JcZw~ at 5:28 pm
Monday, May 08, 2006
Confound it.
NAPFA was a-b-s-o-l-u-t-e-l-y fouled up. Well, time to write a more coherent post than this morning's....
Let's start from the morning... when I came out of the room to type my first post, it was like walking into a solid wall of heat. My father later would comment that "today's really humid". I was also so insomna-ed that after disassembling my shaver to clean it (a process which I usually carry out quite naturally), I forgot how to reassemble it back and had to ask my father for help
-_-'"
6-item NAPFA was novel to say the least... I cleared my SBJ decently enough, and cut my shuttle run by quite a bit.
It was only when we saw the ambulances that I should have thought that today's weather conditions were not ideal, but apparently it did not occur to me. It was very clear when we started though. By the first bend my side was beginning to throb. By the third lap I felt like withering and dying. The sun was literally sucking the moisture from our bodies, stark contrast to the previous year (where rainy conditions cost me a below 10 min timing thanks to someone slipping and tripping me!).
I could not start fast, and I could not accelerate along the straights as I would usually do, nor could I concentrate. Bringing my thoughts to bear on the person in front of me was becoming as easy as drawing a bead on an air rifle target while hyperventilating. By the two laps, nausea was prevalent. Mr Goh's countdown to the silver could only prompt me to sprint to the end before collapsing quite literally.
Lesson learnt: Never run with a severe lack of sleep especially when you're recovering from a bug.
12 min 20 sec. Horrendous. A full minute and more off the pace and the worst run I've done since Primary School.
Die lar. Retake next week lor. And I hope to goodness I can come out intact cos my Chinese Prelim is on the same day. So irritating! Life is just getting me down. Makes you feel like quitting school and getting a job as a caveman or something. Chinese fencing subjects SJ work work work. Its no wonder I'm not getting any sleep at night. Can't wait for the day when my body can shut down before 2 am!
Haiyar, just that not much seems to be going right at this moment
NAPFA was a-b-s-o-l-u-t-e-l-y fouled up. Well, time to write a more coherent post than this morning's....
Let's start from the morning... when I came out of the room to type my first post, it was like walking into a solid wall of heat. My father later would comment that "today's really humid". I was also so insomna-ed that after disassembling my shaver to clean it (a process which I usually carry out quite naturally), I forgot how to reassemble it back and had to ask my father for help
-_-'"
6-item NAPFA was novel to say the least... I cleared my SBJ decently enough, and cut my shuttle run by quite a bit.
It was only when we saw the ambulances that I should have thought that today's weather conditions were not ideal, but apparently it did not occur to me. It was very clear when we started though. By the first bend my side was beginning to throb. By the third lap I felt like withering and dying. The sun was literally sucking the moisture from our bodies, stark contrast to the previous year (where rainy conditions cost me a below 10 min timing thanks to someone slipping and tripping me!).
I could not start fast, and I could not accelerate along the straights as I would usually do, nor could I concentrate. Bringing my thoughts to bear on the person in front of me was becoming as easy as drawing a bead on an air rifle target while hyperventilating. By the two laps, nausea was prevalent. Mr Goh's countdown to the silver could only prompt me to sprint to the end before collapsing quite literally.
Lesson learnt: Never run with a severe lack of sleep especially when you're recovering from a bug.
12 min 20 sec. Horrendous. A full minute and more off the pace and the worst run I've done since Primary School.
Die lar. Retake next week lor. And I hope to goodness I can come out intact cos my Chinese Prelim is on the same day. So irritating! Life is just getting me down. Makes you feel like quitting school and getting a job as a caveman or something. Chinese fencing subjects SJ work work work. Its no wonder I'm not getting any sleep at night. Can't wait for the day when my body can shut down before 2 am!
Haiyar, just that not much seems to be going right at this moment
~JcZw~ at 5:58 pm
According to my computer clock it is 6.30 in the morning. What the beep am I doing here you may ask.... Well, basically I'm ingesting some billion carbon, hydrogen and nitrogen atoms in the quest for energy during NAPFA later...
Last night I just discovered that I couldn't pass my SBJ due to a lamentable lack of length (both physically, as well as in the jump)! Whywhywhy! I can't believe this is troubling me now when I thought nothing of it during Mock NAPFA! Well, at least we still have next week if we fail this week... Here's my review of the other items..
Chinups: Hopefully will be ok. I guess I'm stronger than last year (when I managed to do 10! How did I do 10! I've never come close to it!) but also heavier, with the fried mars bars still lurking somewhere in my system... I shall use the highest bar, bearing in mind that the farther one is from the Earth's centre, the less the pull of the gravitational field..
Shuttle run: Also should be alright... but given all those 10ths of a second... Well, with shoes on or off it shouldn't be a problem
Situps: I haven't had trouble with those since Primary School (where I consistently failed my NAPFA till Pr6), its just one of those nuisance things that sap your strength for the later categories
SBJ: I said that already... Argh! I can't believe I'm in fencing and I STILL have this problem
Sit and Reach: The only one I've consistently done well for since Primary school! I shall leave this for the last after all my limbs have warmed up..
2.4: Ahaha! By far my favourite event... I'll go with the "John Landy" style again =)
Anyway I gotta go wash up now... Had another insomnic night... As Daniel said, "I think you have a problem".... yea, he may be right... its been one week like this already...
Last night I just discovered that I couldn't pass my SBJ due to a lamentable lack of length (both physically, as well as in the jump)! Whywhywhy! I can't believe this is troubling me now when I thought nothing of it during Mock NAPFA! Well, at least we still have next week if we fail this week... Here's my review of the other items..
Chinups: Hopefully will be ok. I guess I'm stronger than last year (when I managed to do 10! How did I do 10! I've never come close to it!) but also heavier, with the fried mars bars still lurking somewhere in my system... I shall use the highest bar, bearing in mind that the farther one is from the Earth's centre, the less the pull of the gravitational field..
Shuttle run: Also should be alright... but given all those 10ths of a second... Well, with shoes on or off it shouldn't be a problem
Situps: I haven't had trouble with those since Primary School (where I consistently failed my NAPFA till Pr6), its just one of those nuisance things that sap your strength for the later categories
SBJ: I said that already... Argh! I can't believe I'm in fencing and I STILL have this problem
Sit and Reach: The only one I've consistently done well for since Primary school! I shall leave this for the last after all my limbs have warmed up..
2.4: Ahaha! By far my favourite event... I'll go with the "John Landy" style again =)
Anyway I gotta go wash up now... Had another insomnic night... As Daniel said, "I think you have a problem".... yea, he may be right... its been one week like this already...
~JcZw~ at 6:32 am
Friday, May 05, 2006
The second of the series of long weekends ahead. Not bad... Still, there is plenty of homework to entertain us... Half day today.. The government hijacked the school and threatened to fine anyone who stayed past 12 o'clock =D they should do this more often! Went to Far East (was it Far East? I don't know... somewhere there lar) to eat Long John and Fried Mars bars with Prata, Stella, Vibha and Liling (and later, Charmaine)... now that was TRULY unhealthy... forgot to take picture!!
After that we walked about to try and use up the glycogen... Can you imagine, NAPFA's on Monday and we're still doing such self-destructive stuff xD Really must exercise this weekend.
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We finally handed over for First Aid Club, leaving it to Junbin and Samuel, who, like us, are from DHSJAB and AHSJAB respectively. The club has really grown since last year, really hope they'll be able to do well in the year ahead... especially when you consider that the number of qualifed first aiders in the club is not very big...
As for ourselves, I guess I'm privileged to have been part of the club... Haha, not that we're as bonded as other CCAs, being just a club, but we've done many duties together, treated injuries together, gotten suan-ed by Debate Soc. once, suan-ed by some Cosiety pest another time, and oh boy, we've had loads of fun doing all those quizes and seminars =) Other memorable events would include:
Our first duty: Sports Day 29 April 2005
Our first public duty: Under No Roof, 11 hours with limited food... oh boy...
Our first mass casualty duty: Sea Regatta 2006. 40< casualties treated in one day.
Still, we'll be back from time to time just to see how things are..
FAC 2006, which happily includes 2 of my junior class people =)
Farewell was very nice... The juniors bought pizza and stuff for us, and made each of us a little card and a tag which says "VJC First Aider", similar to our armbands... I'm carrying that tag around on my bag now... haha.. so nice.
On the other hand, fencing handover is being bogged down in a series of difficulties, which I should not elaborate on here due to the risk of leaking confidential info... but oh well...
Makes you feel kinda old.. that you're handing over everything all over again... As Vibha mentioned, its like we're being rushed into adulthood too fast... As though Singapore is just accelerating and cramming its young people with technology and education so that they can be rushed into the working world ASAP... Well, nothing wrong with that, because 21 is the adult age anyway, but the sheer speed and amount of info that one learns in your 18 years is so much more than other countries.... May there NEVER be a day when some smart guy in the government thinks "Hey! There are more people in England taking 3 A-levels now! Lets make our students take 5!"
Not to mention that Pulau Tekong is calling to us...
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FSI's coming up... sigh I feel kinda tired of fencing, which, for me, seems to have stagnated at one level and not climbed any higher... Things don't seem to have improved much since the Term 1 season... Been concentrating mainly on stuff regarding the Year 1s for now. The final part of what I said during my exco interview has yet to be fufilled though...
And for that, the inter-school competition arrives in July, the first official tournament by the MOE. Maybe fencing will finally be considered as worth fighting for as other sports groups by the school...
Well.. till then its back to training... And of course, all the schoolwork....
By the way, who is Gavin?
After that we walked about to try and use up the glycogen... Can you imagine, NAPFA's on Monday and we're still doing such self-destructive stuff xD Really must exercise this weekend.
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We finally handed over for First Aid Club, leaving it to Junbin and Samuel, who, like us, are from DHSJAB and AHSJAB respectively. The club has really grown since last year, really hope they'll be able to do well in the year ahead... especially when you consider that the number of qualifed first aiders in the club is not very big...
As for ourselves, I guess I'm privileged to have been part of the club... Haha, not that we're as bonded as other CCAs, being just a club, but we've done many duties together, treated injuries together, gotten suan-ed by Debate Soc. once, suan-ed by some Cosiety pest another time, and oh boy, we've had loads of fun doing all those quizes and seminars =) Other memorable events would include:
Our first duty: Sports Day 29 April 2005
Our first public duty: Under No Roof, 11 hours with limited food... oh boy...
Our first mass casualty duty: Sea Regatta 2006. 40< casualties treated in one day.
Still, we'll be back from time to time just to see how things are..
FAC 2006, which happily includes 2 of my junior class people =)
Farewell was very nice... The juniors bought pizza and stuff for us, and made each of us a little card and a tag which says "VJC First Aider", similar to our armbands... I'm carrying that tag around on my bag now... haha.. so nice.
On the other hand, fencing handover is being bogged down in a series of difficulties, which I should not elaborate on here due to the risk of leaking confidential info... but oh well...
Makes you feel kinda old.. that you're handing over everything all over again... As Vibha mentioned, its like we're being rushed into adulthood too fast... As though Singapore is just accelerating and cramming its young people with technology and education so that they can be rushed into the working world ASAP... Well, nothing wrong with that, because 21 is the adult age anyway, but the sheer speed and amount of info that one learns in your 18 years is so much more than other countries.... May there NEVER be a day when some smart guy in the government thinks "Hey! There are more people in England taking 3 A-levels now! Lets make our students take 5!"
Not to mention that Pulau Tekong is calling to us...
____________________________________________________________________________________
FSI's coming up... sigh I feel kinda tired of fencing, which, for me, seems to have stagnated at one level and not climbed any higher... Things don't seem to have improved much since the Term 1 season... Been concentrating mainly on stuff regarding the Year 1s for now. The final part of what I said during my exco interview has yet to be fufilled though...
And for that, the inter-school competition arrives in July, the first official tournament by the MOE. Maybe fencing will finally be considered as worth fighting for as other sports groups by the school...
Well.. till then its back to training... And of course, all the schoolwork....
By the way, who is Gavin?
~JcZw~ at 11:41 pm
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Well so its my 200th post. Nothing truly significant to write about, but this is as good as any.
Chinese Prelim: 20th May, Saturday, likely 9 am - 12 pm
Chinese AO: 29th May, Monday, 8 am - 11 am
That's assuming optimal time with negligible time taken to collect papers, but then again transition should be pretty fast, considering that I'm only one of two students in VJ retaking Chinese.
To put it bluntly, the long weekend was busy busy busy. The MOE is never going to implement their so-called, vaunted, overblown, and I might even say hypocritical 5-day week unless they set up a booth at the entrance to every school to ensure that every weekend the students LEAVE ALL THEIR STUDYING STUFF IN SCHOOL and not study during the weekend.
Otherwise, holiday or not, we're plied with something in the line of
Bio tuitorial, 1
Maths tuitorial, 1 or more
Physic tuitorial, 1 very irritating one
and of course, who can forget
Chinese, 1 Paper 2, 1 compo and 1 cheng yu chang ju exercise, which took me the whole of sunday to do
not to mention
Chemistry Test, where through a series of unfortunate events I spent the weekend studying topics most of which were not tested!! In the end I've only done RX and RCHO. blah. Oh but happily it got postponed anyway...
Nuts to chinese lar. My prediction that it would double my workload is proving to be very true. Why am I even taking it man... It seems that at the end of the day the exam is down to luck luck and more luck. Stupid random events. Except the probability of getting a B3 and above IN THE EXAM is statistically against me. When I sit at my table and look at the thick pile of assignments in front of me sometimes I just stay there and stone cos I just feel thoroughly depressed. Its like, I'm so hopelessly overdue for 1 and almost half year already. And all this misery is just self-inflicted cos I still don't know what's wrong with my last paper. Don't tell me all the cliche stuff like "you must learnt to like chinese". No go. Tried. Doesn't work.
Hmm well, went to support my first match for the year... Of all things, Alon and I went to Kallang to watch Amanda and her team kill YJ. I guess there is a sort of beauty to netball too? I mean, the running and jumping etcetc, just that I don't appreciate it that much maybe? Well, considering that the last time I watched a netball match I was sec. 1 and watching AHS get flattened by Damai. But it also requires stamina and agility, which I can identify with.
Netball match at Kallang Netball Centre. Amanda was then playing as Wing Attack, the nearest player with the green... thing (i dunno what its called). The overcast sky, the speed of the players and the general low quality of the 6230 makes it quite a blur picture...
How Alon and I walked one huge round cos of a misleading sign that said "Kallang Netball Centre Carpark" and so were late for a match was an epic in itself... heheh.. by the end of which, he wanted to kill me.
But I'd say on the whole the match was very well played! VJ really dominated throughout the whole thing and all the players seemed better.. haha, then again, I'm a biased source =) But yea, they did a good job, and if I'm not wrong, are into the next round...
Oh yea. Handover's coming. It will be a time for reflection on the past year, not as a fencer (cos I'll still be one next year) but as a CCA leader.. But I'll leave that to a later date.. But when I think of this I sometimes feel a little depressed.. Ah well
Gone for now. Its late. Goodnight.
Chinese Prelim: 20th May, Saturday, likely 9 am - 12 pm
Chinese AO: 29th May, Monday, 8 am - 11 am
That's assuming optimal time with negligible time taken to collect papers, but then again transition should be pretty fast, considering that I'm only one of two students in VJ retaking Chinese.
To put it bluntly, the long weekend was busy busy busy. The MOE is never going to implement their so-called, vaunted, overblown, and I might even say hypocritical 5-day week unless they set up a booth at the entrance to every school to ensure that every weekend the students LEAVE ALL THEIR STUDYING STUFF IN SCHOOL and not study during the weekend.
Otherwise, holiday or not, we're plied with something in the line of
Bio tuitorial, 1
Maths tuitorial, 1 or more
Physic tuitorial, 1 very irritating one
and of course, who can forget
Chinese, 1 Paper 2, 1 compo and 1 cheng yu chang ju exercise, which took me the whole of sunday to do
not to mention
Chemistry Test, where through a series of unfortunate events I spent the weekend studying topics most of which were not tested!! In the end I've only done RX and RCHO. blah. Oh but happily it got postponed anyway...
Nuts to chinese lar. My prediction that it would double my workload is proving to be very true. Why am I even taking it man... It seems that at the end of the day the exam is down to luck luck and more luck. Stupid random events. Except the probability of getting a B3 and above IN THE EXAM is statistically against me. When I sit at my table and look at the thick pile of assignments in front of me sometimes I just stay there and stone cos I just feel thoroughly depressed. Its like, I'm so hopelessly overdue for 1 and almost half year already. And all this misery is just self-inflicted cos I still don't know what's wrong with my last paper. Don't tell me all the cliche stuff like "you must learnt to like chinese". No go. Tried. Doesn't work.
Hmm well, went to support my first match for the year... Of all things, Alon and I went to Kallang to watch Amanda and her team kill YJ. I guess there is a sort of beauty to netball too? I mean, the running and jumping etcetc, just that I don't appreciate it that much maybe? Well, considering that the last time I watched a netball match I was sec. 1 and watching AHS get flattened by Damai. But it also requires stamina and agility, which I can identify with.
Netball match at Kallang Netball Centre. Amanda was then playing as Wing Attack, the nearest player with the green... thing (i dunno what its called). The overcast sky, the speed of the players and the general low quality of the 6230 makes it quite a blur picture...
How Alon and I walked one huge round cos of a misleading sign that said "Kallang Netball Centre Carpark" and so were late for a match was an epic in itself... heheh.. by the end of which, he wanted to kill me.
But I'd say on the whole the match was very well played! VJ really dominated throughout the whole thing and all the players seemed better.. haha, then again, I'm a biased source =) But yea, they did a good job, and if I'm not wrong, are into the next round...
Oh yea. Handover's coming. It will be a time for reflection on the past year, not as a fencer (cos I'll still be one next year) but as a CCA leader.. But I'll leave that to a later date.. But when I think of this I sometimes feel a little depressed.. Ah well
Gone for now. Its late. Goodnight.
~JcZw~ at 11:57 pm