~JcZw

Three things are capable of pushing me in Med School when I'm feeling tired.

1. Of friends who would have given anything to be here but are not.

2. Friends in OCS who told me to "study hard arh! make your deferment worth it! Make sure you become a good MO understand" heh (The last clause was, of course, said by ZhenRong

3. The original reason for wanting to be a doctor... Naive idealistic me...

I was just reconsidering my original want to be a doctor.. As early as Sec. 2 I knew that I wanted to do medical related stuff.. After all the St. John, minor cases, but it was a good experience and I related with first aid and etc more than anything I've ever enjoyed doing.

Then came the career guide which said that to be a paramedic your eyesight had to be less at 500 degrees, which I far exceeded. Medicine was the second best thing, and after proceeding through JC, being an instructor, researching all the medical stuff to train James and his team, I guess I finally confirmed what I wanted to be. Housemanship still sounds like hell though... But, as with St. John, and with OCS, so long as there's one reliable friend nearby, I'll survive.

Anyway, found this song in the Christian CD I brought back to hall. Am in love with it already and can't stop listening haha... Think it will join the ranks of "Seek Ye First", "Lead me to Calvary" and "There is a Redeemer". Meaningful also, considering some of the more unpleasant, or morally shaky things which go around sometimes.

Purify my heart
Let me be as gold and precious silver
Purify my heart
Let me be as gold, pure gold

Refiner's fire
My heart's one desire
Is to be holy
Set apart for You, Lord
I choose to be holy
Set apart for You, my Master
Ready to do Your will

Purify my heart
Cleanse me from within
And make me holy
Purify my heart
Cleanse me from my sin
Deep within

-Refiner's Fire, Brian Doerksen

And hope FA goes well tomorrow. There are just too many things in the foot to remember!