~JcZw

Blogger is beginning to hate me... On my own computer I can't see any post after the "back from medicamp" one unless I click on the July archives... Wonder why, ah well.

Aside from becoming a Christian, the two most significant things which have happened to me is

a) Joining St. John. Shaped my career choice, shaped the way I think, act, treat people and etc.

b) Entering OCS. Since everything which I thought ideal was embodied in the Officer's Creed pretty much.

So. My duty is to lead, to excel and to overcome. I lead my men by example, I answer for their training morale and discipline. I must excel in everything I do, I serve with pride, honour and integrity. I will overcome adversity with courage, fortitude and determination.

Unfortunately, the problem which I had been bashing through was akin to having to stop an armoured spearhead with a rifle. I mean, there's no one to lead, cos people aren't coming without excuses, I can't answer for the morale of those I'm supposed to lead cos I don't know how I'm supposed to solve my problem, which does not seem to be resolving despite all the courage, fortitude, determination, SMSes, emails or what not.

Having people acting... in a way which I thought was completely unfounded was the last straw I guess. Coupled with a lack of sleep in the past few days.

But let me confirm. I am not obsessed about this thing which I'm supposed to do... I mean, I'd much rather sleep late, go fencing, play Red Alert 2 and sort out all my documents for registration rather than travel halfway across Singapore. And I'd MUCH rather play badminton and stuff. Maybe you can call it a sense of duty. If no one gets it done then who will? And its the principle of the thing, not just because my backside is on the line.

This is a point of time when everything I've experienced in the above two fields will come in handy, but will also cause a heck of a lot of frustration why others can't do the same.

Oh well whatever. At least some people still help, and for that I'm exceedingly thankful =)