I think there is a chance I may have grown taller...

First indication was when I banged my head while alighting from cars 4 times in 3 days. Second indication was when I actually out-ranged Maurice while fencing heheh.... Though fine yea I aimed for the arm...

With this one week break I really have more time to think... About how my life is so so different from even 4 months back....

I used to be a student, fencer, first aider. I used to be quite intelligent... I could state how much voltage it takes for a nerve to fire, how the pituitary gland secretes stuff, how a free radical substitution reaction could take place, how an electric guitar works and etc. I also knew how to parry a compound attack, move into close range to CQC an opponent before the judge could yell halt. I knew how to immobilise a person who's back had been broken within 6 minutes (in practise of course), and how to prevent someone from getting hurt whilst in an epileptic fit.

Now, I just stone around, sometimes in my PT shirt, sometimes in the sweltering confines of my LBV and long 4. I carry a water bag instead of a school bag, an IC which absorbs a different wavelength of light, a weapon instead of a file. And above all, I don't have to think anymore. All I have to do is to tell my body parts "move. stop. move again. move faster". I don't have to apply critical thinking or any skill I've been learning for the past 12 years. I'm just a drone, a minion, an insignificant speck in the sea of green black and brown.

An environment where no one gives a hoot if you can integrate a trigo function, epee a person 4 meters away within one second, or apply an airtight bandage to keep a person's lung from collapsing.

Really odd... The way one of my classmates said that you don't realise how much you miss something until its gone.... Oh fine, that sentence has been used so many times... But its so so true!!

But I guess the fact that I FINALLY do appreciate my life more does mean that NS does have some positive result =)

And I guess no matter what posting I get next monday, they can only take two years of my life, no, 20 months more. 20 months and we can return to a state of normality.

For every book in, there's a book out. For every course there's a graduating parade =)


With my parents


With GuoShiong and YuanLong, two of my fellow toilet cleaners haha... The latter was also one of my teammates during SIT test... Spending long periods of time crawling through the brush together, or scraping dirt from the toilet walls does form maybe one of the most unique bonds ever haha...

Anyway I've just sounded really weird during the last few paragraphs.... But man... To think I'm no longer a student but a soldier.... Somehow I still don't feel qualified to kill people in wartime...

Anyway the last few days have been quite action packed.... Following the dinner (and the close-death encounter with the car), was a cycling trip with Liling and Keefe (and later ChuaH) which took us to Changi Village then across most of the far eastern side of Singapore (I saw BMTC again!) which took up one afternoon... Quite fruitful for an outing organized on the spur of the moment heh =D

Then there was youth group... And church service today (the first stress free sunday I've had for a long time... Even more stress free than the CNY one)...

Coming up.... more fencing, more SJ, a soccer match against section 1 haha... maybe another outing I don't know... we'll see....

But anyway.... whatever happens... I'll continue trusting God's grace, that he won't put me anywhere I won't be able to take =)

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