~JcZw

Its been a long time

Since I went fencing, and my epee and foil are just sitting in a corner collecting dust. Plus by the time I come home I'm too tired to go. Maybe tomorrow?

Since I went for St. John. The new batch has taken over but I haven't attended any of their sessions before. Since my squadmates and I could sit around talking nonsense and complaining that "why-was-everyone-taking-so-long-could-we-start-going-for-dinner"

Since I went to run, play soccer, exercise, anything, outside of walking the distance from the bus stop and my house (that would be.... about from VS to VJ)

Since I've derived pleasure from slacking around at home, cos now everytime I put down my notes my brain's either numb, or guilty. Which is bad, cos I've got a newfound appreciation for "Battlestar Galactica", and a few other programmes. Happily, most distractions can be cut out with the correct use of an MP3 player

among a lot more other things. But I guess its the Singaporean way of chiong-ing for everything, and the fact that we are Singaporean means we either conform or fail our A-level.

The insomnia and stress I get nowadays is somehow different from what I felt before my competition. Those insomnias leave you feeling tired the next day, consciously tired, and unable to think properly.

But now although I'm sleeping about the same as I used to, my brain is still alert and I exist under the impression that I still retain my wits about me.... until I do something stupid like spontaneously dropping my file while walking out of school, or tripping over more stuff than normal. And its only after I return home that I realise that I AM in fact exhausted but somehow didn't notice it, and yet at night I still find it a drag to put myself to bed... I can still lie there thinking instead of conking out at once... Quite funny.

Oh another weird phenomenon is that instead of feeling tired and so falling asleep in school, I just fall asleep spontaneously.... Like today's maths lect. One moment I was industriously studying Bio (since I'd already done the tuitorial), and next moment the lecturer was saying "Ok, thank you people" and I was waking up and the clock had somehow jumped half an hour -_-'"

Time pasts very fast. If this is the speed of two years, NS is gonna be no problem...