~JcZw

Such a tiring weekend. Such a tiring monday.

But the work keeps piling up and up and up

Higher and higher

A tuitorial that I don't understand in the slightest

An assignment which will require at least some time to do

A set of lecture notes in which I'm lost and must read up on

A competition thats coming up this weekend yet again. Another weekend shot and I'll fall even farther behind. And with foil being what it is, there's no guarantee...

When I look at them... at their togetherness, at their efficiency, I cringe the lack of our own.

Tuition? Where does the time come from?

No sleep. No energy. How long can this last? Till CTs?

When I'm struggling in even my best subject?

I need someone whom I can vent all these things to... But there is no one... Not because I don't have friends... But because there is no one suitable... No one who's not suffering from one or another of these things.

Oh yes... there are those that can help... who are supposed to... But it seems that I have to cover for them as well. For a cent I'd give up the whole thing except for the fact that other people are reliant on that CCA as well. But do they deserve it anyway?

I need sleep desperately. Sometimes the amount of work that piles up.... I can feel my nerves being stretched like they've never been before...

Then come sacrifices... Withdrawing from Epee... Pulling out as an active SNCO... things which I want a lot, but for which there's simply no time.

I guess I'll just drown in this lot of stuff then...

Sorry feeling quite frustrated at my own incapabilities as well as those of several other people...