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Its been a period of weird dreams, since the start of this year... Actually, I also cannot recollect many of them, but three of them are particularly outstanding. And yes, I know they sound weird. They are, after all, just dreams. I hope.

The first one was the worst one and it still brings back a gut-wrenching feeling when I think of it. I shouldn't be thinking too much yar, but its still so vivid! It was before the JAE in the first 3 months of JC. In my dream, someone I cared for a lot was in mortal danger, sick with a deadly illness. I wanted that person to get out of it, get the person cured. I KNEW how to do it! But it would need that person's consent first. But the process was long and doubtful. In the end, that person told me "No". Told me to just let her go, since it would be over quickly anyway.

The feeling was of frustration of helplessness. How do you say it? To see a person so consciously going down a route you know will lead to sadness, but you can't stop her cos she's going of her own free will. You don't dare to stop her cos you don't know if you're right, but somehow, you know that by the time she regrets her decision, it would be too late. When I awoke, I couldn't sleep for some time. It was such a painful dream, not scary, like the nightmares I'd had when I was young. But it was just very sad. And along the course of the year, I had to experience this emotion again (but with regards to a different person). It was not, as in the dream, to do with death. Something much less serious actually, but like in the dream, I could do nothing to prevent it.

(When I say "her" in my dream, please don't misunderstand me. Think in terms of family)

In my second dream, much more recently, I dreamt that the world would end in two days. Somehow, I found myself in AHS with all the Christian friends I'd made from Primary School till JC. I can't remember what we were doing, can't remember the exact emotions. But in the chaos of the ending world, an aircraft crashed into the school building and the whole dream became chaotic, with Wei Lun, Wei Quan and I having to help to extricticate casualties and all that... I don't know what this one means though... I don't know.

The third one was plainly ridiculous. I was dreaming about DNA. Why? I don't know. Overexposure to bio is the only excuse I can make. What the. I woke up with my head ringing with "DNA, RNA, helicase, DNA polymerase, Primase, Peptidyl Transferase" and all that kind of stuff. Eerie. The moment I woke up somemore.... But the thing is that my brain hadn't been resting at night, so I was really tired throughout the day.

I had a fourth dream, but suddenly I can't remember what it is... thats what comes of thinking about DNA the whole night yesterday... hope [Mr] Jonathan Chong is happy...

Yesh shall recuperate now. Good night

In St. John, I view any disciplinary action I give as an instructor as a job. Few people would actually take pleasure in scolding people.