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Guess there has been some improvement how I'm feeling... cos of a certain number of factors. EQ and general emotions reached an all-time low on friday early afternoon just during the string of tuitorials.... just feeling totally utterly zonked. Man, I couldn't even do my skill C and D properly, couldn't concentrate and all that.

Thank goodness for the medical talk to take my mind off things before I lost it completely. Had an interesting time in the talk that was meant for Year 2s... Talked to Trina a bit... Hmm, I saw my sister's classmates there... But didn't dare to talk to them lar, so paiseh. Hope that I can buck up in my GP n go to medicine? Heh... 28/50 ain't too good i guess. And hope that if I get in the interview won't kill. If someone asked me what was my favourite molecule I would just stare like a deer caught in the proverbial headlight. Left early during the Q&A session with Trina and Pei En. Then pushed off back to AHS.

Thats where the improvement started. Good as S15 maybe, the fact remains that I've known them only for 4 months. I have known the SJers, some for 4 years, the juniors for slightly less. There are somethings which.... well, are best talked about away from the source of concern, so to speak. I managed to vent all my concerns to wei quan, who listened patiently... haha.... thank God for long-standing friends. Then we took a short look back into the past history of St. John when we went to play captains' ball in the carpark which took a short break after we got chased off it. For once there were people from all 3 JCs there....

Then Wei Lun, Wei Quan and I tried to replicate our footdrill from one year back. One short year and we had totally lost all our coordination, especially me (since of my team my footdrill is the worst, my foot keeps flaring by itself). But our shoot-out and suspension is still there.... Pity Xuan Cheng didn't come back. For non-SJ people, this team i refer to is the one pictured on the first picture on the left. Yeah, but anyway we got chased off the carpark by the scouts who were doing traffic control for the Meet the parents.

Well... we played captains' ball a bit more then shoved off to block 85 to eat. Managed to get my mind off worry about my relating with other people for a while....

The second factor was my sister who came back from NUS. I had been asking her why she didn't go n see the talk.... She said she wasn't told, but she did know a few people who had been there.

It hasn't really been long since I last had a long conversation with her, but rarely would the topic be on our problems. But she could offer some advice about it... Well, apparently sometimes it happens, when you just shut off and cannot talk to others? I dunno. Yeah. She's one of a few people whom you can talk to with trust... There were other people whom I could talk to.... and this being comfortable with talking to them is the thing that charactierized them from others.

Although that sometimes happens to us too.... Like:

"Whatcha gonna do" [shrugs shoulders like vulture from "The Jungle Book"]
"I dunno, whatcha gonna do" [ditto]

Although it would usually end up with us talking about Star Wars, Biggles or VJC. hehe.

Well, she made me feel better in the end somewhat. Hence the slight improvement to my mental health now. Talk about EQ... I think she'll make a great doctor in the future...

Uh huh, so thats about it for the past two days.... Hope I can really break out of my slump in the next week.... Well, theres church tml, so anything could happen...

Adios!