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A blog essentially is a public diary I guess. I recall reading in one of junior's blogs before, that it may be seen as a sort of attention seeking behaviour? Heh, i guess I just use mine to vent stuff which I want to say. But you know, some things should be kept private at the end of the day. So if details have been omitted, I am aware of them.

One thought that kept bugging me was this. Over the last four years as a st. john member I've tended to more wounds, hyperventilations, contutions, and even a minor fracture than I can remember. Just recalling the sec. 3 inter-class street soccer tournament, I cannot recall how many people got serious cut on various parts of their anatomy. Literally every 5 min someone would yell "medic! st. john!"

You could say that I'd tended most common injuries together with my telepathic communication with my number 1. But these injuries are purely physical. It must be nice to be able to tend to mental and emotional hurts too. Because that needs EQ and not IQ. It makes you kind of helpless to see others worried, sad, or other things but you yourself can only give reassurance, and no more. There is no way to "immoblize" it or to "stop it" like you can do with a fracture or a cut.

Sometimes when you see someone, anyone hurt mentally, you are can be disappointed, angry at yourself, for you cannot do anything to help them. From certain members in my division to even now. Sometimes you wish you could do something, or anything to help them. To get rid of the source of their worry, or just cheer them up. But there is no mental first aid, no written rule as to how these should be done. No "proper procedure". Each case comes on its own. As such you don't know if what you've done is correct. You can only pray. And pray. But it sticks in your own mind.

I recall losing sleep over such an incident in sec. 2. But that turned out okay I guess, and that person and I are now quite inseperable outside of JC.

Woke and slept and woke and slept last night. Guess it ain't too good for the body. But I guess I did want to keep a constant eye on my phone in case anything happened. Up at 7.30. On with the computer access the website. Its Victoria. Okay. I was half-expecting that?

Parkway at 9 am after chatting to several people online.... Whoo! MSN was crowded that morning. Erm.... in order of conversation: Vibha, Dawn, Kenneth, Dory, Pei En, Xun Ai... erm yeah I think like that. If there are anymore... then oops, I'm sorry about it.

Anyway discussed abt cca walkabout with the other FAC exco nominees/volunteers. Xuan Yi was from Kong Hwa, same class as me... haha.... I'd known she was in st. john, but i'd never really kept up with her. I think she leads well n would make a good president... haha... Hilda was from St. Nicks. Her art seems quite good yeah... she's also good to work with. Went to buy sweets from da one dollar shop. Gonna do stretcher drill tml... hope we can lift people. Haven't done stretcher for a long time... true, there's my beloved AC2, but I haven't exactly DONE with them before.

Yow, went back to VJ to help bug the teachers. Definitely we will lose Dawn to RJ and Lionel to Australia. He's even leaving tomorrow! My goodness! Anyway, all the best to them and wish that they will be happy. And also wish that they will be as great a blessing to their new friends as they are to us. Derek n Prap are appealing for continued attendance. I think they do have a fighting chance to get in. Just hang on in there and don't give up. We will not be giving up either!

Then followed Mr Chong (Jonathan ChonG) to ECP to play frisbee, eat pizza... together with the other OSSIS people. I guess it evokes memories of the past, of the class playing together. After my extremely rhetorical entry on the morning on Feb 28 I guess I don't need anymore illustration of the fun we've had. Maybe its time to get down to studying, but its not yet. Not yet. Its on top of us, but not yet.

Had dinner... well.. sort of... with S15 after that. We were hanging ard waiting for Jonathan ChuaH to make his appearance. And when he finally appeared strolling along the path eating an ICE CREAM we just about felt like adjusting the collar of his shirt a good few inches shorter. Well, I prodded him quite a few times with my bottle, but I also missed a lot... Just shows how bad a fencer I am. Yup...so dinner, phototaking blahblah

It seems a pretty tame way to write a post after such an eventuful and emotional day, but I don't know... I have no particular compelling desire to be funny today. I guess the increased distance between friends ain't easy to bear, just like it was when we left AH. But it is a comforting thought to know that we are all ultimately connected through friendship, and through God.

Its going to be a night for thinking, recalling, maybe laughing, maybe something not so cheerful. But S15 will always be as it was when we'd started out. Happy, enthu, mad, famous among the Science Stream classes. And that is truly reassuring.

Everyone take care yeah. See y'all in the next few days!